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| wow its been frikin forever.
um no one at all reads this i know, but i like to write on it for the sake of self importance. so.....summer was fun.
SAM didnt go to summer vaca with the rest of the family so i was all alone...thank you sam. There were several cute guys there and aunt debbie got hit on by an old dude, but then uncle winky just stood up and the dude scurried off. And so i got spend some time with my dad, and i saw jess too. that was rather nice. I've been trying to get sum more time with dad, for the soul purpose of seeing jess more often but...mum isnt going for that. I know i sound aweful using my dad like that but if you knew my dad u wouldnt want to spend that much time with him either. I mean..it is hard only seeing him a little and practically having an imaginary father, but......i just dont love him like i should as his daughter i guess. you guys get the point. well, since sam is the only one that reads this i guess ill go comment her. tata | | |
| i miss that kid like crazy, you have no idea, but i get to see him son.
mabye its a little creepy, and mabye im just hoping for too much, but i know that this year is going to change everything, but i dont know how. i just ant this wait to be over, i want him to hold me again and for the first time.
again in my head i guess.
mabye its creepy, but ti think he thinks the same way, i know he's thinks the same way.
o man i miss him, he's changed everything, shuld i be this dependant on him? i mean ive never done this before, i just dont get emotionaly attatched like this, but i trust him, i know he wont hurt me, he's just as vulnerable in this as i am, even more so maybe.
but there is no abolutely no way that this would work. being so far apart, no way right? to se each other for one week out of everyyear, that wouldnt work would it, of course not, maybe.
i hope so
lol dont u just love my d/p? my friend sent it to me, she's rocks at atrsy stuff
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| i have no right to be jealous, he's got his soul mate aqnd ive got mine right? right!?
ughhhhhhhhhh
why did i let him do that? i mean seriously, i could have had everything and i tried to be like a girl in a romance novel and i ended up just failing again. I tried to be perfect for him, i tried to convince myself i was, he thought i was, but then i just took it too far and bam, ta da! and then i find i wasjust a transition, just a cover up, something he had to convince himself to do. he was so great so perfect, said all the right things, searched all the right places, dang he's good. and i thought i was always thw one in control, when he was jut kidding haha, move on.
am i depending on a guy i see once a year to give me something i need everyday. Im so stupid | | |
| remeber people, we are going through a drought down here. get off your high smelling good horses and hold of on the shower twice a day, dont wash and wax you frikin expensive car every weekend, and your lawns do not have to be bright and green, it's april, they arent supposed to be for another twp months. Hats off goes to Mr, Willar who hasn't had a shower in 2 months, now that is dedication.
I have phantom of the opera stuck in my head thank you shelby.
THINK IF ME< THINK OF ME FONDLY!
whatever, spring has sprung and tourists are coming...joy. Funny how you can always tell a tourist from a native. The first thing they say to you is ,"hello, where is..." get a frikin map, thank you. It beter to tell them the wrong place. Or ( i work wth kids that speak spanish) when ppl ask how to say this is spanish to tell them the wrong thing.
lesson in life, "dont ask, just guess" and never ever ask me for directions | | |
| so spring break was fun i didn't do anything but work but that was ok. We run into some pretty interesting people there and that makes up for the down time. We actually had a few goths come in to skate, i was a about to die laughing at them. N offense to any goths but these guys were so new at it. It was like they didn;t even know how to be goth, but one did hiss at a little kid and that was so the highlight of my day, until of course a a prep girl fell on her butt and had to ice it. Like i said, we have some interesting people come in. One kid asked me out last night, i asked him ho old he was, he said 17, i swear the kid was 12.
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